Thursday, June 23, 2011

The write time

I never commit time for writing on this blog. Pretty much every post is a short stream of consciousness 'blurb' that I type out as it pops into my head (with the exception of a few 'review' or 'how to' posts I've written).

Really, you exclaim? You don't take any time to think about what you write?

Photo by Karl Woll
Oh, come on. You know it and I know it. I'm not sharing any meaningful thoughts or ideas here. I would like to but I just don't seem to have any time to write. To really write. I used to love to write. I still do. I have my degree in English literature for gosh sakes. But no, I don't take the time. I think that's more accurate....that I don't take the time. I could probably make the time if it was more important to me. Or more pressing, I should say. It's definitely important to me. I'm just so drained by the end of the day that I just don't feel like thinking very hard. I feel like being quiet and withdrawn. I like sinking into myself and turning everything off and just being.

That lasts about 15 minutes. Then my mind starts spinning at a speed of at least 100km/second and I'm solving all my current problems, researching everything I feel I need to know more about and planning for the next day. And, believe it or not, I'm truly not an "A type" personality. I'm a busy person and I'm very self motivated and passionate about everything I'm into but I'm not what most would call an "A type."

So then I'm off again and the things I'm thinking about and planning for and solving just seem more pressing and more 'worthy' of my time. And I think that's where I'm making a mistake that I'll regret if I don't remedy it soon. I need to take time for myself. To do things that feed my personal passion and self worth. Things that make me feel good. Don't get me wrong. I wouldn't trade my life or days for anything in the world. I'm doing exactly what I want to do and my life is on a path that makes me very happy and excited. But I feel rushed and a bit 'ripped off' some days. There just isn't enough time in the day for everything. And I can't imagine things will go any slower when I'm back to work.

I've decided I need to take some time each day for me. Other than the 5 rushed minutes I have in the shower every morning...which is the only 'me time' I currently take right now. I'm not sure where I'm going to fit it in or how much time I'll take but even if it's 5 minutes I'm going to squeeze it in somewhere.

Wish me luck.

By the way, the above post was written with no pauses and no edits. But I'll go back now and check for spelling and unacceptable grammatical errors. I am an English major after all.

Update: There were 6 mistakes that I found worthy of editing. Not bad.

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